This story is for every mother who has ever thought (or whispered or screamed), "This is not what I had in mind."

It's for the scared, anxious, stressed, overwhelmed or hopeless mom. It's for every mother whose circumstances have ever made her feel alone, and it's for every mother who would like the heavy stuff to be just a little lighter.

Not What I Had in Mind chronicles the traumatic births and early life of the tiniest set of twins. Told from the perspective of a grieving mother stumbling through the ups and (mostly) downs of 224 days in the neonatal intensive care unit, this story is a moving tribute to the resilience of mothers everywhere.

This harrowing and occasionally hilarious tale is about the miseries and the miracles of motherhood and the bond shared between mothers when reality shatters our expectations.